Spewing rhetoric and rage onto this page that doesn't care
If I've ever been right here or if I'm ever really there
And I've been staring at the ceiling for longer than I've been asleep
And I've been faking every feeling that I've felt the last few weeks
And I'm so sorry for that
Like when I smile I'm not smiling, I'm merely bending my lips
For this girl that doesn't love me anymore
The way she does
And it's not that I don't feel happy
Cause I'm not feeling at all
I guess I'm getting good at acting
Like I do each time she calls
And I can't get a hold
Doctor please
Just another week
I swear it's all I need
To help me stop
And say
This is what I've become
Cause I'm not having fun
I need to fight the urge to run
Home
Listing every single blessing
With so much room left to spare
And my mum says you've still got your health
But she's not
She isn't aware
That I've been falling victim to this curse
That's been making me ill
And I've been fighting for my life
With panic and prescription pills
My brother tells me it's all in my head
Just get a grip
Well I've been hanging on the last few years
But never let it slip
So as the sunlight hit my eyes
I hid away to find the dark
And as I lay it alone in our old bed
It's clear I went to sleep
And to parts
Doctor please
Just another week
I swear it's all I need
To help me stop
And say
This is what I've become
Cause I'm not having fun
I need to fight the urge to run
Home
Cause I spend too much time here
Like this
So just give me something small
Give me anything at all
And for days I paced the rooms
Just waiting for the week to end
I ignored the calls from all my family
My job and even friends
And on that Friday night I had to say
I hadn't been myself
And when I did they turned to look at me
And said that they could tell
And on that Friday night I had to say
Doctor, please
I appreciate the help
But nothing's changed and well
Now I am on my knees
I don't mean to overact
But I don't think you understand
And I don't want to end up back
I don't want to end up back

Alone

Thank you all so much for being part of the final livestream
Yeah, I was gonna say we'll do this again sometime but
But we won't
That was loud
Seriously
And angry