I, I know it I, I know it Most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest Today I seriously thought about killing you I contemplated premeditated murder And I think about killing myself And I love myself way more than I love you, so Today I thought about killing you Premeditated murder You'd only care enough to kill somebody you love The most beautiful thoughts are always beside the darkest Just say it out loud to see how it feels People say, don't say this, don't say that Just say it out loud, just to see how it feels Weigh all the options, nothing's off the table Today I thought about killing you Premeditated murder I think about killing myself And I love myself way more than I love you The most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest I think this is the part where I'm supposed to say something good to compensate it so it doesn't come off bad But sometimes I think really bad things Really, really, really bad things And I love myself way more than I love you See, if I was trying to relate it to more people, I'd probably say I'm struggling with loving myself because that seems like a common theme But that's not the case here I love myself way more than I love you And I think about killing myself So best believe I thought about killing you today Premeditated murder I called up my loved ones I called up my cousins I called up the Muslims Said I'm about to go dumb Get so bright, it's no sun Get so loud, I hear none Scream so loud, got no lungs Hurt so bad, I go numb Time to bring in the drums That putter up a pum-pum-pum Set a new tone on em Set the nuke off on em I need coke with no rum I taste coke on her tongue I don't joke with no one They'll say he died so young I done had a bad case Of too many bad days Got too many bad traits Use the floor for ashtrays I don't do *** halfway I'ma clear the cachet I'ma make my name last Put that on my last name It's a different type of rules that we obey Yeah, yeah, yeah, Caesar, nigga, we obey We was all born to die, nigga, D-O-A Niggas say they're heroes, mm I don't see no K, mm I don't see no, mm, yeah I don't see no, mm, mm If I wasn't shining so hard, wouldn't be no shade Puck weed-ass, nigga, it's gon' be okay Young niggas ***, nigga, we don't age I thought I was fast, my deep old ways Even when I went broke, I ain't break How you gon' hate, nigga, we go way back To when I had the braids and you had the wave cap Drop a pen for the fade and I'm on my way ASAP Don't get shocked in the map, you know homie don't play that Pay the five miles to build, cause this ***, they got way back They wanna see me go ape, ape, ape All you gotta do is speak on Yate All you gotta do is speak on Yate Don't get too two-tip like Frito-Lay