Guess you're really gone, I've been so fixated On everything I lost, in just one conversation Where you said life was long, but mine isn't worth wasting Your mind isn't wrong, doesn't mean I'm not wishing I could change it It's always 10pm, laying in my head Turning all my thoughts to potential text That's the way I get after 2am, and it's 2am So how you doing? You seem fine and I've been going through it Selfishly I hope your heart is ruined Cause somehow you still love me in my head I hate that I imagine, when you get this message your reaction It's late again, well that's what always happens I know I'd regret, everything I'd send I should just go to bed I should just go to bed I don't wanna care, so I'm optimistic Am I not self aware, for hoping that you'll miss this And you say there's a future us But how can I be certain of what we'll become With all your words and actions never syncing up It's hard to know it's me you're really thinking of Cause when it's 10pm, laying in my head I can hear your voice, words you never said That's the way I get after 2am, here I go again So how you doing? You seem fine and I've been going through it Selfishly I hope your heart is ruined Cause somehow you still love me in my head I hate that I imagine, when you get this message your reaction It's late again, well that's what always happens I know I'd regret, everything I'd send I should just go to bed I should just go to bed I should just go to bed Why's it hard to be the bigger person, I'm just hurting I keep trying to justify the way you left and it's not working Don't deserve it, swear to god you're hurting me on purpose And maybe it's my fault cause at your worst I see the best in you Letting you go piece by piece until there's nothing left to lose It's working, but sometimes I just wanna say in person So how you doing? You seem fine and I've been going through it Selfishly I hope your heart is ruined Really thought we'd make it in the end I should just go to bed