In the darkness I hear your name
I whisper in the dark
A flicker of flame I
never imagined losing you would feel like
this Like carrying weight I can't sit down no
matter how hard I try My mind replays every moment
Every word I should have said Every choice I wish I could change
And it shatters me again
I miss you in ways I can't put into words In the silence I'm lost,
my heart's unhurt
The truth is I'm not okay I wear a smile like a mask
But inside I'm just learning how to fall apart Piece by piece
Hoping no one sees the wreckage The heartache that won't cease
My dear son,
Hayden Maher You're the light in my day
Though you're gone in my heart
You forever stay
I laugh when I need to But it's just a facade
Inside I'm crumbling It's so hard to be strong
Each memory a dagger Each thought a heavy stone
I'm learning how to navigate this world alone
I miss you in ways I can't put into words
In the silence I'm lost,
my heart's unhurt The truth is I'm
not okay I wear a smile like a mask
But inside I'm just learning how to fall apart Piece by piece
Hoping no one sees the wreckage The heartache that won't cease
Every day's a battle Every night's a fight
I search for your shadow in the fading
light Though the world keeps spinning
I'm standing still Carrying your memory
It's a heavy thrill
I miss you in ways I can't put into words In the silence I'm lost,
my heart's unhurt
The truth is I'm not okay I wear a smile like a mask
But inside I'm just learning how to fall apart Piece by piece
Hoping no one sees the wreckage
The heartache that won't cease
My dear son,
Hayden Marr You're forever in my heart
Though we're worlds apart
We'll never be apart