Well I blame it on my parents cause I guess I'm predisposed To want things I shouldn't ever want And now it's getting old And I blame it on the fantasies I built within my mind It's a mechanism I discovered when I was a child And I blame it on the sister that I never got to have Maybe all of the attention is what did me in so bad Cause I'll wake up with a burden in my body, in my chest And I never find the answers to the questions on the test So I went and told you I was fine, shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I left it all behind, I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good, shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could, I lied, I lied I lied, I lied, I lied Well I blame it on the list of things I wrote inside my head All the moments that I've longed for, all the things I've never said Like I wish that I was different, I wish that they would know me I wish the weight was lifted, I wish that you would hold me I went and told you I was fine, shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I left it all behind, I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good, shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could, I lied, I lied I lied, I lied, I lied Wish that I could say it, and never let it faze me That I don't lay down and cry But I've been empty, all this time I went and told you I was fine, shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I left it all behind, I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good, shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could, I lied, I lied I went and told you I was fine, shouldn't have told you I was fine Said I left it all behind, I lied, I lied I went and told you I was good, shouldn't have told you I was good When I thought I never could, I lied, I lied It's almost cathartic, the heartache Breaks me down to my knees almost every time I told you I was fine, I told you I was fine I lied, I lied