I've been fighting with thoughts and temptations I'm not good at holding conversations *** it with me, baby, please just be patient Once you're here, I don't want my bed vacant Every night we've been fighting and *** and loving I don't know if I hate this *** or love it Don't wanna keep going, but don't wanna cut it End up predicting me, but won't discuss it, no You say you love me, but I know you hate me I never wanna face me, I never wanna face it I'm not one for chasing, you never explain it I'm gone on the weekends, I'm off the deep end Nothing ever makes sense Watch you walk out my life and it ain't been the same since Put it in the past tense I was playing the offense, but now I'm on defense And I said you were the one that was crazy I should've had better judgment, I was lazy Now I sit at record level, I'm on vacay I should've known that you were trouble when you made me say That I love you so much, I don't want you to leave And that you were the one that was pulling my strings And then you went and ripped my heart up into pieces I never thought it would reach this You say you love me, but I know you hate me I never wanna face me, I never wanna face it I'm not one for chasing, you never explain it I'm gone on the weekends, I'm off the deep end Nothing ever makes sense Watch you walk out my life and it ain't been the same since Put it in the past tense I was playing the offense, but now I'm on defense And once you leave, there's no coming back I don't wanna see your face, and on top of that I don't want you on my phone, no, I'm not texting back I know no matter what you do that you'll come running back And don't try to backtrack on *** that you said Just turn me in my head, you already dead So I'm gonna let you rest in peace Hopefully this'll end the misery