My friends always ask me if I'd ever let go Again I never respond Cause I'm scared that I might sound insane Or maybe I'm just afraid of the answer Cause I don't want the belief that I could ever Be in control enough so I don't lose it all I've gained way too much man, I can't afford to fall As long as my past and I are still out of oil I promised myself I wouldn't let them record I've been holding myself back Damn I forgot how to live I've been trying to be perfect I didn't even question it I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live Yeah I think I *** up I just want to live One, two, almost three years went by Without anything easing my mind I need some damn peace of mind It's getting harder to get through the night So I roll it up for them And I watch them breathe it in I don't think they understand Just how bad I wish that I was them I've been holding myself back Damn I forgot how to live I've been trying to be perfect I didn't even question it I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live Yeah I think I *** up I just want to live Yeah I think I *** up, *** up, *** up, *** up I've been holding myself back Damn I forgot how to live I've been trying to be perfect I didn't even question it I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live Yeah I think I *** up I just want to live I've been holding myself back Damn I forgot how to live I've been trying to be perfect I didn't even question it I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live Yeah I think I *** up I just want to live I just want to live