Stuck, I am home, same as always Hit the snooze, what's the point, one more Monday I have lost all control and I'm stuck in this hole I am trapped and I'm waiting for some day I can't sleep, I'm awake but distracted Sick of crisis becoming protracted Feeling stuck in my room, scrolling through endless doom In one permanent panic reaction Lost track of time, sometime last year Isolated, confined for the next year Try not to do what I can with a hand and I'm dealt But I'm starting to crack on the pressure Call your friends and comment on the weather Learn to knit, make some bread, what's your pleasure Going out on my head, *** wish I was dead Cause at least I would know that it's over I am staring at the walls, I think I'm gonna go insane I'm fighting every instinct in my stupid *** brain I'm an ordinary guy caught in extraordinary pain Ask me how I'm holding up and I will gleefully exclaim It's still the same Still the same, same Trapped, no more time, no more freedom No more weeks, no more months, no more season Every day is the same and I just can't reclaim Any sense of the rhyme or the reason So I felt lost, a peek from Ibiza They're just doing whatever they please I'm trying to swallow my rage, I am following space Drink a beer, cry it out, order pizza Chains of thought, the only thing to know where No way out, if there was, I would go there Do I have any friends, will I sail when this ends Do they all think that I'm just a letdown Every time that I can't settle the meltdown Wash my hands, check my posts, wipe my house down Is this living at all, I can't even recall Life before I was stuck in this nightmare I am staring at the walls, I think I'm gonna go insane I'm fighting every instinct in my stupid *** brain I'm an ordinary guy caught in extraordinary pain Ask me how I'm holding up and I will gleefully exclaim It's still the same, still the same, same Happy, I just want to be happy I cry instead of laughing I lie awake just waiting I spend my life just staying Inside instead of saying To my friends how I'm sorry They tell me to be happy, be happy Maybe my friends all call me lazy Maybe I'm not like they had claimed, they all completely know me Or maybe I'm just crazy, not everything's about me I'm in the downward spiral, go back to sleep and smile It just, it just knows It just knows It just knows It just knows ***!