I ain't meant for this Riding on a icicle in the December mist I'm feeling blessed with bliss I got my pencil grip Trying to write about what's left of this Cause what's right is wrong so what's left is best When only your heart beat and breath is left There ain't nothing clearer than cleanliness That's why the doctors say clear when they press your chest Cleanse your sins, cleanse your sense Forget the press ticket, use a vintage disc And I am not on the list for the guests But I guess you could be my guest if I guessed the list 24 missed calls, 9 messages I don't wake up next to this Are you trying to string me along? And if so, what's the length of it? How long is a piece of string? I could smell burning How long was the pizza in? But I don't give a sense of *** ***, I'm in the next abyss Filled up to the brim with emptiness And so I guess this is This is me My eyes are open now This is me They can't hold us down It's over now Where the *** did I put it? Where the *** did I last have it? ***'s sake Alone on my own, just zoning Don't know where my phone is Home is where the heart is *** it, then I'm homeless Heartless *** *** it, I don't know if my daddy noticed That his son is fully grown yet *** it, I should phone him I ain't got his number All I got is mum's one All I need is that And a toilet with a plunger Get rid of this *** Knowing I would dread it If I miss it with my chicks Still I'm missing with this bit Who's a seven at best? Maybe seven and a bit on a good day But this is a bad day I'm using a beer bottle as a flipping ashtray Convincing myself I'm winning in this rap race And that mirror's just a picture of a sad face Listen to my damn pace Feeling smaller than the pins playing Andre Feeling outcast in a room full of three thousand big boy Feeling like a skinny kid Wishing that I did right Feeling like a waste man Wishing I was employed Like I'm on my deathbed Wishing that I enjoyed life All I could've done Should've, would've done Listen to the bass Listen to the drums Have you ever had a dream That you were being chased but you couldn't run? This is me My eyes are open now This is me I can't hold this down It's over now This is me My eyes are open now This is me I can't hold this down It's over now It's over now