I should've focused on the love, yeah, yeah, love I should've focused on the love, yeah, and my health before the fame I should've told somebody how I felt instead of tightening the belt around my neck I should've asked for help, but I've been asking myself everyday If it's too late for me to make a change They say the grass is greener on the other side But I took a look at mine until they tried I guess they lied, or maybe I'm colorblind Or maybe I forgot to give it water and I let it die Cause that's what I do with everything important in my life, yeah, I make it disappear I hide the evidence and act like it was never here I pack my backpack and put it on my back real fast And leave the murder scene behind my back And never looking back at my past again, yeah, I really need a friend I really need someone that I can let inside my head I'm in hell, help, I'm lonely and afraid I really need somebody by my side Cause nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression So I'm doing this my way without any lessons I'm writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions And then I'm reading them out loud in my therapy session But it's not working, and I don't know why Maybe I was made to be unhappy till the day I die Or maybe my only purpose in life is to hate being alive Cause every single second of my life is like a waste of time I got bad thoughts on my mind and it's my fault, I know I should've never closed my eyes and gone blind, I know I should've never lied to myself every time that I said I'll be fine Cause I'm not fine I don't even know if I'm alive anymore Cause nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression So I'm doing this my way without any lessons I'm writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions And then I'm reading them out loud in my therapy session But nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression So I'm doing this my way without any lessons I'm writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions And then I'm reading them out loud in my therapy session But nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression