What if I said I don't want to live anymore?
Clichés flying out your mouth,
I heard it before.
Reality is harsh when it's strictly robotic.
And I can't stop it.
All I think about is death,
disappointment and pain.
And the shackles on my leg pulling me with the grain.
I'm being honest, most of y'all won't like it.
But the demon scream of war is not my domain,
I constantly fight it.
But what is normal, I don't know anymore.
All I know is truth hurts in the heart of the storm.
It's like a crown of thorns and a chap to the ribs.
Nails slam through my hand,
blood leaks to my wrists.
Screaming at the sky, forsaken to life.
Taken from the silence with the senses burning my eyes.
It's easy to say smile when you don't understand health Fire burns
different than every woman and man I lose
love and I feel it with hate I've seen
life in the light and the ball went
blank in your defense it's your only
defense to tell me what's right and how
deep I offend I'm not sorry and I fight
this guilt you instill when I say I
hurt and you don't feel I'm obligated to
express the little piece that's left of
my sanity reaching out not bearing *
there's no way to the why it's like this
pain is pain and I just take it like it
is a dark monk meditated on his sins
forever raging and never aging till the
maggots fill my skull when all is
finally faded maybe I'll find peace in
the grave I'm finally erased in life and
life is death and the beauty in between
is clouded by the memories in the heart
of the storm in the heart of the storm
every day is a struggle to move on and
endure life and life is death and the
beauty in between is clouded by the
memories in the heart of the storm in
the heart of the storm every day is a struggle to move
on and endure what is love what an odd word in this
odd world of mine I rarely find a source other
than loneliness and hopes and I feel it anymore
so every day we move on and endure I'm faithless
my fate is faced down and finished slowly pieces
of my hope disintegrate and diminish I'm not a
freak nor alone in the dark we don't have to lie
and say we aren't falling apart I hate happiness
for being everything I can't be you can't cure me
if you don't understand me I got head high
just to hide my hurt but every shout was a
snap and I just bled out word it just pained
me I never found peace there but now I'm stuck
in the wake of that warfare a lost hope I
can't cope anymore cuz inside my heart lies
the eye of the storm doomed to life and life
is death and the beauty in between is clouded
by the memories in the heart of the storm in
the heart of the storm every day is a struggle
to move on and endure doomed to life and
life is death and the beauty in between is
clouded by the memories in the heart
of the storm in the heart of the storm
every day is a struggle to move on and endure