Remember one Christmas I gave you Jim Carroll Intended it as a cautionary tale You said you saw yourself inside there Documented like a how-to manual Remember one summer we walked in Times Square I showed you the zombies with hundred inch stairs You took a pic, set your hotel on fire We took the plane, took the bags to the train Happy birthday Johnny, wherever you are Happy birthday Johnny, wherever you are Last time you called it was on New Year's Eve You asked me for dough to get something to eat Since we last spoke you live on the street Yeah, I wouldn't believe all the *** that you've seen Happy New Year Johnny, is it 23? Happy New Year Johnny, are there lights on the trees? When I said let me think and you yelled through your teeth Accused me of acting like all royalty Always for show, no true charity You saw me on magazines and TV But they only knew the real version of me Only you know the secrets, the swamp and the fear What happened to blood, our family Annie, how could you do this to me? Of course I blame me When you get free Johnny, I hope you find peace