I said I didn't speak to you so you'll go somewhere else. ***. So, I've got... Yeah. Yeah, you're lying here next to me. I see that you've just fallen asleep. I stroke your head, baby. Wipe your ear. Good night. I start to think about everything we've done. About this life we've had together. All our memories. All our happiness. And all these days we tried to walk. I never thought it would last. But look at me now. I'm sitting here and praying. That you'll stay until the day. When it's time for me to somehow disappear. I swear you're the mother I lost. And when I stood there so lonely. Yeah, you gave me my share. And somehow it was the only thing that could take away the fear. We've gone through everything. I know for the first time that you're so strong. Even before the money ran out. And I had to go back and start selling weed. I got your support through everything. And I swear it was the only thing that kept me alive. I know it's my fault. So blame me. Because our dreams were so damn late. But let's never look back again. Because it hurts so damn much for both of us. No one will ever be able to change. You told me what happened when we were so young. I know that you miss your dad. And I actually know exactly how it feels. To just sit and wait for that day. When even parents might come back home. I'm so damn scared. But because of you. I'm actually able to keep my head up and try to live. You're that light that I've been looking for. That darkness that I've always laid. And now everything is so clear. And I've had a success. And I swear it's so big today. That I would even have a *** smile on my lips. If I just fell down and died today. Because you have given me a feeling. That no human in this world will be able to describe. But through some *** words on a piece of paper. When you're sitting and writing in your new album. My woman. Never again. Will I ever be able to sit and watch you suffer. You're what I think of when I'm standing here. Hanging in my arms. And you're snuggling by my side. So damn beautiful. When you're lying here and sleeping. I swear to God you're so beautiful. I take a break from writing this verse. I have to kiss you on your brown cheek. Who would have thought that a loser like me. Would ever get to experience something like this. I had no idea how you felt. Like you were really *** in love. And if it ever ends. In the same second my life is also over. I've been close before. So I'm no longer afraid to see what we call death. But to lose you. It's something I can never think of. But I will be able to handle. For a life without you. I've probably already laid myself down in my own grave. What's left when you've lost everything you've ever had. And when you blow out the light. And let everything just turn black. Let our memories be forever. So that's why now I hope we get more. Just live by your side. I swear I want to do anything to make it work. I sacrifice everything I've achieved. I give us one last chance. I save money for our house. So that one day we can move back to our homeland. And when our sons become men. And we're old and we're getting closer to the end. And if that day comes. Then it's time for you to sink into a small chest. I hope that I'm already gone. Because I will never be able to live without you. I will stay here in hell. And my soul will follow my girl. And then when we're finally free. And our book has reached it's absolute last page. And if you're still by my side. Then it's only then I can finally rest in peace. That's what I wanted to write. So now when the alarm clock will soon start ringing. Then I'll hide this letter under the mattress. Lay down next to me and start smiling. I thank God for he has created the most beautiful thing that exists. She is my angel. Good morning my little darling. It's time for us to get up in bed. I love you. I love you.