I don't think I can find a way to make it on this earth What's up family, yeah this your cousin Carl, man Just giving you a call, man I know you've been having a lot on your mind lately And I know you feel like, you know, people ain't been praying But you have to understand this, man That we are cursed people Deuteronomy 28 and 28 says The Lord shall smite thee with madness And blindness and astonishment of heart See family, that's why you feel like you feel Like you got a chip on your shoulder Why God, why God do I gotta suffer Pain in my heart carry burdens full of struggle Why God, why God do I gotta bleed Every stone thrown at you resting at my feet Why God, why God do I gotta suffer Earth is no war, won't you burn this mother I don't think I can find a way to make it on this earth I'm just a girl who's no more worth to fret If I said I'd go, I'd go, I'd go If I'm in a terrible state, no one's going to fret If I said I'd go, I'd go, I'd go I'm just a girl who's raised on harmony If I said I'd go, I'd go, I'd go If I'm in a terrible state, no one's going to fret I beat your ass, keep talking back I beat your ass, who bought you that, you stole it I beat your ass, if you say that game is broken I beat your ass, if you jump on my couch I beat your ass, if you walk in this house with tears in your eyes Running from poo-poo and Prentice Go back outside, I beat your ass, lil' That homework better be finished I beat your ass, your teachers better not be Bout you in class, that piece of bed not be wasted You eat it all, that TV better not be loud If you got it on, them Jordans better not get dirty When I just bought them, better not hear about you On Keisha's daughter, better not hear you got caught up I beat your ass, you better not run to your father I beat your ass, you know my patience running thin I got poo-poo payments to make County buildings on my ass, trying to take my food stamps away I beat your ass, if you tell them social workers he live here I beat your ass, if I beat your ass twice and you still here Seven years old, think you run this house by yourself You gon' fear me if you don't fear no one else If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that mother up And then I'd take two puffs Now, now, now, now Life's a pull em, to the side now I'd probably die anonymous, I'd probably die with promises I'd probably die walking back home from the candy house I'd probably die because these colors are standing out I'd probably die because I ain't no DeMarcus or snitching I'd probably die at these house parties I'd probably die from witnesses leaving me false accused I'd probably die from thinking that me and your hood was cool Or maybe die from pressing the line, acting too extra Or maybe die because these smokers are more than desperate I'd probably die from one of these pats and blue badges Body slammed in black and white paint, my bones snapping Or maybe die from panic or die from being too lax Or die from waiting on a dime cause I'm moving too fast I'd probably die trying to bop, deck the apartments I'd probably die trying to defuse two homies arguing I'd probably die cause that's what you do when you're seventeen My worries in a hurry, I wish I controlled things If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that mother up And then I'd take two puffs I've been hungry all my life It's gone Life's a bullet to the side now When I was twenty-seven I grew accustomed to more fear Accumulated ten times over throughout the years My newfound life made Harlem be magnified How many accolades do I need to block denial? The shock value of my success purports in me All this money, is God playing a joke on me? Is it for the moment and will he see me as joke? Take it from me and leave me worse than I was before At twenty-seven my biggest fear was losing it all Scared to spend money, had me sleeping from hall to hall Scared to go back to section eight with my mama stressing Thirty shows a month and I still won't buy me no Lexus What is an advisor? Somebody that's holding my checks Just to f**k me over and put my finances in debt I read a case about Rihanna's accountant and wonder How did the bad girl feel when she looked at them numbers? That type of s**t'll make me flip out and just s**t some Drill some, get ill and feel wretched with a little some My practice running from fear, guess I had some good luck At twenty-seven years old my biggest fear was being judged How they look at me, reflect on myself, my family, my city What they say about me, reveal if my reputation will miss me What they see from me will trickle down generations in time What they hear from me will make them highlight my simplest lines I'm talking fear, fear of losing creativity I'm talking fear, fear of missing out on you and me I'm talking fear, fear of losing loyalty for pride Cause my DNA won't let me evolve in the light of God I'm talking fear, fear that my humbleness is gone I'm talking fear, fear that love ain't living here no more I'm talking fear, fear that is wickedness or weakness Fear, whatever it is both is distinctive Fear, what happens on earth stays on earth And I can't take these feelings with me so hopefully they disperse Within fourteen tracks carried out over wax Searching for resolutions until somebody get back Fear, what happens on earth stays on earth And I can't take these feelings with me so hopefully they disperse Within fourteen tracks carried out over wax Wondering if I'm living through fear or living through rap Damn God damn you God damn me God damn us God damn we God damn us all Verse 2 says you only have I known of all the families of the earth Therefore I will punish you for all your iniquities So until we come back to these commandments Until you come back to these commandments We're going to feel this way, we're going to be under this curse Because he said he's going to punish earth The so called black, hispanic and native american indians Are the true children of Israel We are the Israelites according to the Bible The children of Israel he's going to punish us for our iniquities For our disobedience Because we chose to follow other gods Then as his man chastened his son So the Lord thy God chastened thee So just like you're chastening your own son He's going to chasten you because he loves you So that's why we get chastised That's why we're in the position that we're in Until we come back to these laws, statutes and commandments And do what the Lord says These curses are going to be upon us We're going to be at a lower state in this life Than we live here and today in the United States of America I love you family and I pray for you God bless you, Shalom