This is the part I hate When I already know that you're fading away And know that I'm too late To try to restart or compensate We may still be friends But I know that you've moved on And I hate it This is the part I despise Forcing a smile, hiding piles of lies And despite our kind words The flame has been dimmed And we've severed all our ties Maybe I'm imagining That you suddenly hate me But deep down I know there's no way you ever liked me You just got used to me Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye All I'm really scared of is being forgotten Left in the dust with the filth and the rot And being slowly consumed by my own insecurities Until I can't look in a mirror All I'm really scared of being second best To the people more talented But I will always be less Both less important and less than Because I may pour myself into my work But I won't be shipped off in a can Cause you can't sell out until you've got fans Beside your mom, your dad, and a couple of your friends And the only people listening are the people with nothing *** better to do So don't call me underrated when nobody wants to rate me Hell up until last week nobody even wanted to date me I hate me so *** much and you should too Because when I am left alone that's the only time that I can be true Because deep down I'm an *** I'm a goddamn awful person Let the dogs eat me alive so then I'd be less of a burden And the truth of the matter is I know that I'm the worst It's just a shame I have to be the one to say it first Unless I've hurt you And I know that I said sorry But that's never enough It'll just leave me *** starry-eyed So maybe it's unhealthy Maybe I am a toxicity And how am I supposed to leave the people who have trusted me? How? ***, maybe I'm better off dead Nah, I can't do that I'll never start my music career then What am I supposed to do? Just let this happen? Get lost in the dirt? Fading into obscurity? Let people who are more popular than I am take over the limelight? I think the *** not You better *** listen Cause it only gets worse from here