I'm black on blacker velvet, milk skin and veins

Like some El Greco painting, so full of pain

So full of longing for light of day I thought I knew who I was in the world

But here I am twice blind at being born

Crawling to my buried voice within And I've forgotten who I used to be

And I've forgotten the woman in red, living her dream

And I've forgotten the courage I used to be Happiness is overrated, it never lasts

Skating the surface of oceanic depths

Oh, may the fruit of my life be meaning So please forgive me all my seriousness

My so-called spirituality, I'm just a mess

I'm tears and anxiety but I'm unafraid to see And I've forgotten who I used to be

The leader in her glory shining, divining

And I've forgotten the courage I used to be

The middle passage is so damn tumbling, persona crumbling Don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try

And I try, and I try, and I try I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try

And I try Like some El Greco painting, no sun or sky

No lantern, no candle needed to light

The holy radiance behind the eyes And I've forgotten who I used to be

And I've forgotten that woman in red, living her dream

And I've forgotten the courage I used to be I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try

And I try, and I try, and I try I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

And I try, and I try, and I try