I'm caught up in the everyday trend
Tied up by invisible thread
Walking down a razor-thin edge
And I wake up tired
Think I'm better off dead
Been a few months since
I crossed over state lines
Talk to my mom
Fake smiles over FaceTime
Drink all night till
I can't walk a straight line
Feel so low
But I'm high at the same time
I can't keep my feet on the ground
And I'm nervous
What you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out
I think that I should try
To kill my ego
'cause if I don't my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow lately
I'm acting like a * baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Still a little kid that can't make friends
Wanna be invited but I won't attend
I been having bad dreams
My career could end
'cause I slip up
When I should've played pretend
Turned eighteen and I left the city
I said I wanna be cool
I don't wanna be pretty
The voices all came crashing down
And said you're too nice to run this town
I can't keep my feet on the ground
And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out
I think that I should try
To kill my ego
'cause if I don't my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow lately
I'm acting like a * baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up but somehow lately
I'm acting like a * baby
I'm really not that happy being me
I don't like the lie I'm living
I'm way too nice and too forgiving
I wanna go back to the beginning
When it all felt right
A rooftop Lower East Side I'm singing
Didn't give a * if I was winning
It's all done now so who am I kidding
I'm doing way worse than I'm admitting
I think that I should try
To kill my ego
'cause if I don't my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow lately
I'm acting like a * baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up but somehow lately
I'm acting like a * baby
I'm really not that happy being me