Woke up feeling ugly, getting witty Blowing off chances of hittin' this bitty Then I broke a heart that's on it's way And I can feel my deepest demons emerging Surfin' thoughts quickly infecting my mind Pills got sliced, we're sleepin' on a rail line And the clock top looks on in diastolic Sittin' in a dunk in perpetual me time All my strings wiggle me and stay, feelin' crazy Suckin' under the covers, they're drugs that I rarely Never really had any luck with a purpose All they've done is turn me into a condescending nihilist Cryin' bad mouth and eyes, that's my new rarity Knowin' my true love despises and hates me Lyin' to my friends and I do get evil about Everything's seen in this suicide hotline Oh believe I've tried, there's no need to mind I wake up every morning wishin' that I'd died The pain, the bill of the day, my hands on a stain Healin' myself, I say it's not too late Even after all this time, shame's still got my heart Despite the fact we've been so far apart Imagine that pretty girl found the time to attain Tears are gone, the clock chains busy bein' obscene No matter tears I shed, my heart is right there to last All I get from her is heartbreak and ambivalence Mama went to heaven, no longer bipolar Cryin' every day, barely keepin' my composure No more havin' to deal with contrasting personalities Doesn't ease the pain of this tragic reality Ending this chapter, wanna overdose like Matrix Fall down, I'm havin' pills of hate, maybe it's fate behind Here's a toast to the angel of death Solely realizin' I've a lack of self-respect Hangin' out, COVID prevents interaction Frightened baddies in my dreams, they don't relax Inconvinced myself that everyone laughs capacity For things bringin' peace and satisfaction Oh, believe I've tried, there ain't no need to lie I wake up every morning wishin' that I've died The pain, the bill of the day, my hands on a stain Healin' myself, I say it's not too late Even after all this time change, still got my heart Despite the fact we've been so far apart Devastatin', so mistaken Heartbreakin', aggravatin' Depression raisin', rage creatin' Thinkin' or actin', I'm unforgivin' Grave diggin' and overdosin' Peeling down, troutin' With this feelin' Devastatin', so mistaken Heartbreakin', aggravatin' Depression raisin', rage creatin' Thinkin' or actin', I'm unforgivin' Grave diggin' and overdosin' Peeling down, troutin' Oh, believe I'm tired, there's no need to lie I wake up every morning prayin' for love The pain, the bill of the day, it's my soul's lookin' for a way I realize I really have what it takes Even after all this time, she's the only girl in my heart Gonna do what I can to make a fresh new start Oh, believe I'm tired, there's no need to lie I wake up every morning prayin' for love The pain, the bill of the day, it's my soul's lookin' for a way I realize I really have what it takes Even after all this time, she's the only girl in my heart Gonna do what I can to make a fresh new start