I don't know how much more I can take Cause I'm gonna need more than sunlight to get in shape Weed makes me panic unless a pro drives me insane Tell me how do you do what you love when you're sick in the brain And you're two thousand miles away So why am I stalking your Twitter and lying awake I show my true colors you left and my life got so gray I can't get over you yet I've built up so much hate But despite all the lies and projections I hope you're okay I'm not, I don't want to escape Apart from my ego deflated Staring me down I surrender to sound just to find out that I was a fake I'm not, I just want to escape Apart from my ego deflated Staring me down I surrender Cause behind the smile I'm so pissed But I won't be showing emotions No I'm not even telling my close friends You can't fix me now I'm too broken I don't know why I'm withering this way Think I'm always making a mistake Close my eyes just hoping my neck breaks Now I'm hard to cope and I don't know how much more I can take I'm lost I can't find an escape Apart from my ego deflated Staring me down I surrender to sound just to find out that I was a fake I'm not, I just want to escape Apart from my ego deflated Staring me down I surrender to sound just to find out that I was a A fluke I got a tab in my pocket It's what I use to justify all the fab I brought And I produce a beat it's like making lace nootropics Refuse repeated eternal state neurotics Split in my hair it's all a vanity fair I'll leave the body up where And you can bring me to hell Yeah you can tell it was a lie that you would've won I'll play it out in my mind what I could've done And keep wondering if I'll ride when my time is up I can't help but picture my life ending in a month And baby you can try to love me but I'm out phased I'm straight flush with poker on my face Then I start to choke on my own grave Now I'm hardly coping I don't know how much more I can take Cause my whole personality's fake And I want someone else in my place That feels so much better I'll set off for now And endeavor to die or create Baum Die or Create Die Die Die Die Die Bloom to death Bloom to death Bloom to death Bloom to death Bloom to death Too excited about dying and blooming