Yeah Depressing anxiety got a hold of me Cause people say they want the older me Well I'm 30, that's the oldest me, but hold it's me The piece of *** that's not good enough Not black enough, not hood enough Not rich enough, not poor enough My heart is poor enough I've been beaten and batted My confidence shattered, been broken and tattered I'm constantly second guessing If my profession is worth it On my mental state Writing this from a dark place With humility and grace Peace, love, and positivity Was my nativity But not when socials are in my vicinity I'm not running from the internet My God, I was at his birth I've been a vet Going berserk like Peter down at Intertech It's deeper than the surface I'm searching for purpose I'm tired of searching for logic And Google on purpose Is to read that I'm worthless I remember making music alone Just a pen and a microphone But nowadays it's hard to get in the zone Writing rhymes was easy before the fame Now I'm constantly overthinking Every line is a shame Rap used to fill me with joy Now it's nothing but pain I'm stuck in the game Trying to get back from where I came I write this letter for the person who's listening Fed up and tired of people dismissing them I'm with you, I've been through what you've been through And no amount of money can take away the feeling of insecurity Only through maturity can we overcome Feel like I've been overrun Feel like it's over, I'm done Whoever told you success gon' make you happy You've been lied to All of my dreams came true But I bleed and cry too Never been perfect, I failed every time I tried to Feeling hated and underappreciated Every time I look in the mirror I wonder why you I'd love to end this on some positive *** Hit you with punchlines instead of some derogatory *** But it's okay to be sad sometimes and tired of *** I guess Ferrari Certain kind of clothes And certain kind of house And so on and so on and so on And we think we need all that Because we haven't asked ourselves Whether that was what we really wanted They all think they gotta have this They gotta have that And they don't really want it If they sat back and considered Do I need all that? Is this trip really necessary? They would come to the conclusion that it wasn't