I'm tryna find a way to cope with the painFind a way to cope with the painI think everything is better in a RyanI think everything is better in a RyanI'm tryna cope but I can'tI found a way to cope with the painI think everything is better in a RyanI still give a *, yeahAnd realistically, I don't think I'm ever gonnaI blow down marijuana, smokeI never asked for this *, I hope you know thatAnd I hope you know that every * thing you gave me, I keptHow about a monster that just stops?My heart hanging on my chestI'm sorry for all the stressAnd I'm sorry my life been a messBut enough saidHow come I gotta wake up when I be dead?Let it just end, no, I'm just gonna keep on getting more paidAnd lately, I've been thinking about changingThen I realized only one thing ain't changingIf I said I love you, I was just playingHonestly, I think I'm crazyAnd I don't know how to make conversationBut I hope that you know that I'm sorryYou can put my song on your playlist or somethingDear, I hope you find whatever the * it is that you're looking forI know you never come backClaim to be an easy personBut I just wish you would've told me it could be this hardSee, loving you is like this perfect magicNever-ending alternate realityWhere we can just get high and act like nothing's really happeningAnd every day I miss you and I hate it when you're mad at meIf loving you's a war, I guess my heart is just a casualtyAnd what are hearts for if all they ever do is break?And I just wish that I could sleepI * hate thisAnd what's the ending to this story?And do I define my fate?And will I ever be on time?Or will I always just be late?I don't knowI just hope we both learn better ways to cope with the painEverything look better in the rainEverything look better in the rainI think everything look better in the rainI think everything look better in the rain