I ain't easy living, and too, too scared to die. I want what I want, how I want, when I want it. I'ma keep it a hundred, I'm blunted, I don't give a damn. I don't give a *** about another man, *** a brother man. I'ma make it, make it rain like a weatherman. Oh girl, shoulda, shoulda got a better man. Ass fat, looking good, I'ma let it man. In the hood, I'm a better man. Wish a mother***er would, would. Whole life, I've been up to no good. Change it all if I could. Rearrange my heart to be good. But I can't, I'ma send another saint. Leggings to my life, no I can't. Cover it up with paint, keep on living. Living on money and women, as soon as I'm in, I'm out. Now the truth never come out my mouth. Speak life when I come and I'm out, like. I'm a dirty mother***er, a waste of life. A waste of skin, wanna repent, don't know where to begin. Next to kin, don't give a damn about me. I know God don't give a damn about me. People try but don't know about me. But the devil said he let me want my soul. But the devil said he let me want my soul. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Somebody save me. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Somebody save me. Don't want you to be my sin somehow. I'd rather be a different man in another world. Than work for the man in my universe. Wonder what it feel like. To take flight. Mama told me everything gon' be alright. I mean my life can't be alright. But couldn't think about it, everybody runnin' the world. Seem to be alright. Can you mother***ers see alright? I mean I need it, I want it, I gotta have it. Everyday tragic. If you're from where I'm from, everyday ain't magic. On this I know. I've been tellin' everybody I'ma give it a go. I know I've been never fulfilled in my soul. Oh I know. Love it or hate it, I made it, I did it. I live it with the whole world lookin' at the boy like whoa. Baptized in the ocean of Hennessy. Really wonder what the remedy. Tell me how the world gon' remember me. Got me feelin' like the enemy. Like I ain't got no energy. I've been lookin' for an entity. Feelin' like I need to chill. Like I need a new amenity. *** all that. I'm a dirty mother***er. A waste of life, a waste of skin. Wanna repent, don't know where to begin. Next to kin, don't give a damn about me. I know God don't give a damn about me. People try but don't know about me. But the devil said he let me want my soul. But the devil said he let me want my soul. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Give it to me right now. Let it save me. Are you here to save me or watch me weep my tears on high. My life was lived the wrong way. I know I did you wrong in my own way. But it was the flashing lights that mesmerized and hypnotized the only. Part of me you love. Part of me that had the strength to rise above. Part of me you know. Part of me you love. We're gonna let it go. I'm locked up in half my friends. And then when I get out or I make it out. I'm expected to somehow give back to people who never wanted to see me escaping. I'm starting to hate the man in the mirror. And it's getting clearer that society was designed to keep me on the bottom. So if you're real. If you're out there for real. Please explain to me why. Why do we suffer? Why do we die? And why do the people who go against everything you ever said. Always get ahead. I've done so much wrong. I don't know if I can ever be right. But tonight I am in this church. Asking you to show yourself. To reveal yourself to me. Because I'm tired. And I don't know what else to do. So black I'm blue. So brown I'm down. I done been everywhere but up. And when I finally get up. I am ravaged with guilt and pain and shame. And all I want to do is believe in you. The darker you are the closer you are to dirt. And they make sure it hurts. And I am tired of hurting man. I'm tired of being looked at, second guessed, doubted, feared. So if you out there do something about this. Because I can't take it no more. Help me.