My story line is un-drafted or unsketched How can I grow up and nobody but still pose a threat? Everybody's still schooling but never learned My mom used to work a dumpster to try put food on my plate She went down the abusive line if I could trigger the memory lane My dad hit the road before I was born Not until the age of 26 that his face I would know A lot of unsuccessful dreams in my family To those who pretend to hate me is just envy Lost love to my mom, she was very close to my heart How could I ever know that I could stand on my own? It's only that I was a child but now that I'm grown I fake memories and only remember what I chose Understand that your hate is my strength And if I could never stop fighting until the last breath of my breath I kept losing myself but I went steady in my head Fulfilling the dreams I made, slipping on my bed I used to help nobody like a skeleton Till I grew up to a no-good, no-good, no-good Till I grew up to a nobody like a floating head I absorbed all your shots like a punching bag Well protected like a clothed in bread I'm under armour of all the demons you've seen I'm probably the worst, you could check your compass I'm still on the west, I'm right here adjoining the war clock I never left, and I'm scooting it like I haven't shown you my best Still on the journey to find myself so I ain't down on this quest My name haunting the living cause I took myself from the dead I am silent, I'll be the prison your mom said you shouldn't *** Mother still within me though you had no chance I kept wishing you well Motivate you to rise from the dead just to kill you again If life is a race then I'm taking the lead You better choose your words wisely I mean careful what you say when you talk about me I'm not well spoken of but I'm not one to impress I can't reveal the world on my shoulders In this closed doors, behind this closed doors The way y'all sitting, I know y'all got two choices You either run with me or run from me In times of any war, choose to stand with me or against me But know this, my addiction is off-limits Given anything, I'm allergic to losing Hey girl, you're now an angel You've always been, but now you're looking down on me I know you see me every day, but all I have is your memories As a kid, I used to cry a lot Mainly because at home, I used to be a laughingstock So now I think my tears have dried That's why I don't shed tears no more Your dad shook me At 14, I didn't know how to deal with this pain I was lost, though I was surrounded by people I always felt so alone A hateful reminder when I looked at your younger sons I thought it would be different now that I'm grown But now, it's still the same The void is unfulfilled Big bite in my face, it was closed doors Big chain hanging my face, behind this closed doors So now I can't reveal the world on my shoulders It was closed doors, behind this closed doors It was closed doors, in this closed doors Big bite in my face, in this closed doors Big chain hanging my face, behind this closed doors Closed doors, these closed doors It's genuine, it's just on the real I don't know, everybody expecting something From you always, but then nah It's just gotta be you, reveal the closed doors I am silent to the world I am silent to the world I am silent to the world