Am I a lost case?
Is this mess just a phase?
I feel guilty
I hate myself for hating myself
I punish myself for hating myself
It's going on and on and on
Until I'm down on the ground
Tears will change nothings But I still keep crying
Every day and night and day That I'm angry for feeling this way
I am running in circles I can't find the way out
Why do I keep hurting myself like this?
Did I deserve it?
Or I'm just out of my mind?
What is it that I'm trying to find?
I hate being stuck in this maze,
yeah Soon I'll go crazy
Keep your advice I don't need to hear it twice
You know well it doesn't help Welcome to my huge mess
My
huge mess
Oh
Guilt is just so much Dealing with it is annoying
Sometimes I simply have to ignore it It's boiling inside of me
All of this misery Then when it overflows
My whole life just blows up to the sky
I am back at the start
I am running
in circles I can't find the way out
Why do I keep hurting
myself like this?
Did I deserve it?
Or I'm just out of my mind?
What is it that I'm trying to find?
I hate being stuck in this maze,
yeah Soon I'll go crazy
Keep your advice I don't need to hear it twice
You know well it doesn't help Welcome to my huge mess
I should take a break And accept I'm just human
Humans make mistakes
Why do I feel I can be like that When no one ever told me that
Yet I still feel it's not who I must be
It's so draining The guilt is just too much
I think I might throw up My body doesn't understand
My soul is going numb So I'm just running
Through the fire,
through the rain Maybe I'll be okay one day
How's it possible Every time I try to change it
I magically appear Back at the beginning My head is spinning but
I'm still running And the world keeps moving forward Everything
gets me triggered It doesn't take too much Yet I'm still running
I am running
I am running in circles
I am running I am running
I am still running in circles
My body doesn't understand My soul is going numb
Soon I'll go crazy Keep your advice I don't need to hear it twice
You know well it doesn't help Welcome
to my huge mess