I love to hear rumors about me
Cause it always feels like watching a movie
And I know that people think I go outside sometimes
When I don't
Sometimes I get worried about me
Cause I think probably nobody knows me
Because I struggle to tell my own story
So I don't
Open up your bitter heart and let the sun shine in
If I do I fall apart, I can't be whole again
It does not have to be this way
I cannot live or fade away
I do not trust the stars or hearts
But maybe I'm a chaos guy
Try to hold on to religion too
My blood's wiped in tears and my vision
But I only found my commitments to the chaos
I'm on reality slipping
I'm putting pictures in my pocket
And whispering to God saying
I could never truly believe in
For a taste of love
Open up your bitter heart and let the sun shine in
If I do I fall apart, I can't be whole again
It does not have to be this way
I cannot live or fade away
I do not trust the stars or hearts
But maybe I'm a chaos guy
I don't have a home
Because the chaos got its purpose to roam
Maybe I cannot have peace
Because it's one of the things I'm supposed to be
Open up your bitter heart and let the sun shine in
If I do I fall apart, I can't be whole again
It does not have to be this way
It does not have to be this way
I cannot live or fade away
I do not trust the stars or hearts
But maybe I'm a chaos guy