Am I running or am I bored?
Constant emotions got me feeling kind of torn
White picket fences and polaroid lenses
And all the endless things inside your drawers
You'll be happy and I'll have cardboard
Another night spent on my own
Whole new city's got me reaching for my phone
Another vacation, a new education
And never any markings on the walls
You'll be happy and I'll have cardboard
And so I pity myself
Cause I'm watching you alone on the balcony
And no, I don't need your help
But tonight I'm caught up in our insecurities
All the birthdays I missed
Graduations I did
So I could chase a dream
For what I want
What could have been
But I'm lost and by
Seasons change just like my home
You give the roses to *** my finger on the thorns
But where have I gone, gone, gone?
Cause I'll have cardboard
And so I pity myself
Cause I'm watching you alone on the balcony
And no, I don't need your help
But tonight I'm caught up in our insecurities
All the birthdays I missed
Graduations I did
So I could chase a dream
For what I want
What could have been
But I'm lost and by
You'll be happy and I'll have cardboard
Tonight I'm gonna raise a glass to us
For how we both are never good enough
I hope someday we'll be the best of us
So best of luck
And so I pity myself
Cause I'm watching you alone on the balcony
And no, I don't need your help
But tonight I'm caught up in our insecurities
All the birthdays I missed
Graduations I did
So I could chase a dream
For what I want
What could have been
But I'm on standby