Open blinds, but I can't find my way aroundI owe it to myself,I got a lot to figure outGot a knot in my belly,are you sure you're supposed to help me?It's been long enough to feel it,can you feel it?Aren't I supposed to feel it now?Tell me what you're thinking,I don't wanna have to shoutFeel the heavy breathing on my chest and in my mouthGot two hands around my heart,I don't wanna see myselfRunning bridges when I'm down,hold up watch my *, I'm fallingWondering how to spend my million hours while you're callingGo back to my bedroom with no colors,my apartment my apartment but no way see my room shot up from a hammer and pole you know but thesetwo aren't supposed to feel it now tell me what you're thinking I don't wanna have toshout feel the heavy breathing on my chest and in my mouth got two hands around my heartI don't wanna see myself running bridges when I'm downhold on watch my sh-I'm falling through the corridors used to the broken flooring sorry I'm not sorry forwhat I excuse myself for boring I thought of my chest my mentality could even tell aThe star reads me at my best,my next project might be the one that shoots meThen the stars in the sky light our bedroom Flashing words on the walls and my head'sblue I'm alive but I can't live without you,can't live without youAnd the thoughts in my head run in circlesAnd the sheets on my bed's got a bird fold I'm alive but I know that I won't do nothingI'm gonna hold you backI'm gonna hold you backI'm gonna hold you backIjust wanna go to sleep but I don't know how to keepSeparated from my thoughts,it's become a part of meIf I'm alive at 24,my life is that Iconomy I don't know what I wanna be,nobody better bother me I'm sick,deprived, and suicidal I don't think we've had a lot of thingsI know it's in my mindBut sometimes it's just kinda hard to seeNobody really gives a *It took a bit of time to feelThe guys I don't wanna beI really didn't wanna beI don't wanna be