Swungin' out the gas, poppin' out a prescription Thinkin' bout my past, so I try to forget it But whenever it get bad, I just swallow the liquor Tryna figure where it went wrong at, but I cannot remember But I remember what you told me You'll never leave me, that's what you told me Whenever I need you, you gon' be there, that's what you told me But you're not here now, yeah Stayin' at the coke, I ain't bout no lie I'm scared that it's no way out, so high I'm scared that I won't come down, come down Why everybody tellin' me to calm down? I don't pour the chill when I got loved ones in the ground I don't pour the chill when none of my dead ones around me I don't pour the chill when it's plain, I feel real But I can't do nothin' about it Tired of walkin' around feelin' ugly and proud Tired of walkin' around feelin' like love ain't around me All these dark clouds and puddles around me, yeah Tired of walkin' around feelin' like I'm drownin' I remember layin' on that ground bleedin' Thinkin' I got the best of me Couple screw, couple pins, only thing I got left from me Durant and Sean Smokin' out a gag, poppin' out a prescription Thinkin' bout my past, so I try to forget it But whenever it get bad, I just swallow the liquor Tryna figure where it went wrong at, but I cannot remember But I remember what you told me You'll never leave me, that's what you told me Whenever I need you, you gon' be there, that's what you told me But you're not here now, lookin' for you But can't find you when I need you Can't question God, cause I know God got his reason But it been hard and I been bothered by these demons That pain pierced my heart and left me scarred and I need you Lookin' at these diamond chains Lookin' at them watchin' rain Thinkin' bout how far I came, yeah I been through a lot of pain Without you, it's just not the same Without you, I be goin' crazy Tryna find my way back home, but I'm lost Tryna cut my brain back on, but I'm off It's like I'm rappin' a whole plain song But I'm talkin' the reddest song Smokin' out a gag, poppin' out a prescription Thinkin' bout my past, so I try to forget it But whenever it get bad, I just swallow the liquor Tryna figure where it went wrong at, but I cannot remember But I remember what you told me You'll never leave me, that's what you told me Whenever I need you, you gon' be there That's what you told me, but you're not here now