I love him, physical touch I need it too much at this point, it's a habit For me to go to his place Then walk in with shame and wishing that I hadn't If I think that's what I really need Then why do I feel bitter when I leave? Cause I'll go to his place Then walk in with shame and wish it never happened I'm desperate for someone just to hold me for a second Cause I get kinda lonely then regret Spending nights in someone else's bed When they wouldn't even notice if I left I mess when I'm treating my emotions for attention Giving love but that's not what I get Maybe I should touch myself instead Cause they're always *** better in my head Better in my head, head, head, head Better in my head, head, head, head I think that intimacy is all that I need But it's so hard to find it It's always that night into me They tell me to leave, I'm constantly reminded That goodbye only means a new confession Twenty-five and I'm still learning stupid lessons Intimacy is all that I need But how do you define it? I'm desperate for someone just to hold me for a second Cause I get kinda lonely then regret Spending nights in someone else's bed When they wouldn't even notice if I left I mess when I'm treating my emotions for attention Giving love but that's not what I get Maybe I should touch myself instead Cause they're always *** better in my head Better in my head, head, head, head Better in my head, head, head, head I go through the motions, I push then I pull in But no, I should just go to bed Can't help it, I'm hopeless I know where it's going But maybe just let me pretend I'm desperate for someone just to hold me for a second Cause I get kinda lonely then regret Spending nights in someone else's bed When they wouldn't even notice if I left I mess when I'm treating my emotions for attention Giving love but that's not what I get Maybe I should touch myself instead Cause they're always *** better in my head Better in my head, head, head, head Better in my head, head, head, head