I'm sleeping too much and somehow not enough at the same time The shower's my enemy, I've been avoiding the front lines, yeah I justify self-medicating by saying it's just this time But one turned to two and then three, now I see that the warning signs Slowly slipping, start to spiral, caught myself in self-denial Guess I can't keep lying to my brain It's getting bad again, *** I know myself and no, I can't pretend It's getting bad again I'm watching my life from the passenger side of a train wreck Someone cut the brakes but I don't even brace for the impacts I've been here too many times to count, wasting my energy Emptied my bank account all for the sake of trying to change Something that won't go away I'm slowly slipping, start to spiral, caught myself in self-denial Guess I can't keep lying to my brain It's getting bad again, *** I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end I know myself and no, I can't pretend It's not too much, feel like giving up on this It's getting bad, no it's getting bad again I don't wanna breathe, I know that I'ma try to fight this I don't wanna feel like sticking any longer It's getting bad again I don't wanna breathe, I know that I'ma try to fight this I don't wanna feel like sticking any longer It's getting bad again I know myself and no, I can't pretend I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end I know myself and no, I can't pretend It's getting bad again