Dad I know you were sad when you died

And I was young its the way I kept you in my mind

The mess that was left and my mother cried

And when she stood up she was nobodys mother

Id be fine

But I missed you then

And I miss you now

Liked youd missed things I might say

Youre still lost in clouds but Im older now

I can see through lifting haze

That you were away even when you were here

Sometimes a phrase or a manner thats you

Comes through me, it goes in a flash

Its a frame, its oblique like life

Oh and how much now should we pay for the past

Cause you could age with grace if I freed you in my mind

But I loved you then

And I love you now

All the things I wished Id asked

When Im lost in clouds

I remember how I was robbed and I was blessed

And you were away even when you were here

Cause its not about you, not you, anymore

Its about what Id do with it all

And I, Ill never let you let me down

This morning I wake to be older than you were

Fresh white snow for miles, every footstep will be mine

Youd have lost that weight, youd have gone so straight

Youd have made my wedding day

Youd have saved my youth from that bullet of truth

Youd have kept those wolves at bay

You were away, you were away even when you were here