Don't know how to feel, when you want to see, all the pain you cause, to your family, suffering the most, I hear what they say, everything is clear, I can't live that way.Don't know how to feel, when you want to break, all the things you love, thinking it's okay, cutting into flesh, till the loom returns, everything is black, now that you confess.I begin to try, I can't shake the urge, burying the fear, stifling the cry, it's not like they said, best time of your life, giving all you can, love you till you're dead.I can't live that way.It begins to shout, making me believe.I would have no choice, I can feel the eyes, looking over me, for a way of risking, how it used to be.I can't let you in, it takes too much to get out, if I don't let you in, that full force pushes me down.I can't let you in, it takes too much to get out, if I don't let you in, that full force pushes me down.I can't let you in, it takes too much to get out, if I don't let you in, that full force pushes me down.When I was 14, I hid in his room, hoping I would sleep, never be exhumed, history and the past, it was always there.So I don't need a pill, till I breathe my last, suffering the most, I hear what you say, everything is clear, I can't live that way.Don't know how to feel, when I want to end, all the time I had, thinking it's not real.I can't let you in, it takes too much to get out, if I don't let you in, that full force pushes me down.I can't let you in, it takes too much to get out, if I don't let you in, that full force pushes me down.I can't let you in, it takes too much to get out, if I don't let you in, that full force pushes me down.That, that, that was pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy, pushy.I can't go in. It takes too much to get out of there. If I don't go, don't go in. That full force pushes me down. I can't go, don't go in. It takes too much to get out of there. If I don't go, don't go in. That full force pushes me down.