I was young and narcissistic, hellishly ambitious
Searching for some solid ground to stand upon
And reckless, all my actions senseless
Never thought of consequences
Until the day I heard you'd come along
And every night when I feel the space
I hold on tight to my pillow case
Try to get a sense of you
Green hazelnut
Staring back at me
Like a loaded gun
I never knew it would hurt so much
To wanna love someone
In everything I do
Every stranger's face
In all the open places
That I'm running to
I always think of you
A wave of indecision
That never seems to break
A trail of hearts left bleeding in its wake
And in my search to be someone
I lost sight of what I've become
I can't recognize
The sunken eyes that are staring back at me
Like a loaded gun
I never knew it would hurt so much
To wanna love someone
In everything I do
Every stranger's face
In all the open places
That I'm running to
I always think of you
And I've been up since yesterday
Been counting cars and wandering
Through avenues and alleyways
But it's all the same
Cause in every open place
That I stop into
It never knows the pain
Like I want it to
I always think of you