I walked through the door with you, the air was cold But something about it felt like home somehow And I left my scarf there at your sister's house And you've still got it in your drawer even now Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze We're singing in the car, getting lost upstate Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place I can picture it after all these days And though it's long gone and that magic's not here no more And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all Cause there we are again on that little town street You almost ran the red cause you were looking over at me Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed And your mother's telling stories about you on the t-ball team You taught me about your past, thinking a new future was me And you were tossing me the car keys, * the patriarchy Keychain on the ground, we were always skipping town And I was thinking on the drive down, anytime now He's gonna say it's love, you never called it what it was Till we were dead and gone and buried Check the pulse and come back swearing it's the same After three months in the grave And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you But all I felt was shame, and you held my lifeless frame And I know it's long gone and there was nothing else I could do And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to Cause here we are again in the middle of the night We're dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well And there we are again when nobody had to know You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an old sacred prayer And we'd swear to remember it all too well Well maybe we got lost in translation Maybe I asked for too much But maybe this thing was a masterpiece Till you tore it all up, running scared I was there, I remember it all too well And you call me up again just to break me like a promise So casually cruel in the name of being honest I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here Cause I remember it all, all, all They say all's well that ends well But I'm in a new hell every time you double-cross my mind You said if we had been closer in age Maybe it would've been fun And that made me want to die The idea you had of me, who was she? A never needy, ever lovely jewel Whose shine reflects on you Not weeping in a party bathroom Some actress asking me what happened to you That's what happened to you You who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes Sipping coffee like you're on a late night show But then he watched me walk to the front door all night Willing you to come And he said it's supposed to be fun Turn 21 Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it I'd like to be my old self again But I'm still trying to find it After blatant days and nights when you made me your own Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone But you keep my old scarf from that very first week Cause it reminds you of innocence And it smells like me You can't get rid of it Cause you remember it all too well Cause here we are again when I loved you so Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well Remember my hair, you were there, you remember it all Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well And I was never good at telling jokes But the punchline goes I'll get older but your lovers stay my age From when your Brooklyn broke my skin and bones I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue? Just between us, did the love affair maim you too? Cause in this city's barren cold I still remember the first fall of snow And how it glistened as it fell I remember it all too well Just between us, did the love affair maim you all too well? Just between us, do you remember it all too well? Just between us, I remember it all too well They say all's well that ends well But I'm in a new hell every time You dug across my mind Said if we had been closer in age Maybe it would've been fine And that made me want to die The idea you had of me Who was she? A never-needing, ever-loving jewel Whose charm reflects on you Now we've been in the party bathroom Some actress asking me what happened to you That's what happened to you You've charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes Sipping coffee like you're on a late night show But then he watched me watch the front door all night Willing you to come And he said it's supposed to be fun Turns me on Thanks for watching!